Selamat tahun baru

i need to revive and strengthen my parenting time with the kids especially part ajar anak baca Quran..

Amna had memorized 12 surahs when i started to be inconsistent around mid year due to overwhelming office work and house chores.Then Amna was (and still is) in phase of voicing out her thoughts like 'taknak la baca surah harini' ' amna taknak baca amna nak tido je' which makes things more difficult for me..its not my style to force the kids into something. i was in idle mode until recently, when i resorted to tell stories of the surah (translation) to my kids before they go to sleep,at least they learnt something if not memorizing the actual surah.They love the animals, volcanos and other physicial elements found in the Quran.

I know semua tu alasan Jadual semua dah ada,mcm2 teknik dah belajar.But it was me.I was being inconsistent. The truth that,perhaps i was inconsistent in reciting the Quran myself (am not proud of it). I know i need to do something and must not rely to anyone else to execute my mission i.e to teach my kids Quran since early age.

Azam tahun baru: Revive and rejuv Quran reciting and parenting activities again.Thanks for the reminder Puan Husna Haron.

Other parents,if you have certain method or ideas on teaching your kids to learn Quran, please share your techniques and tips to this needy mom Gazillion thanks.

Therapy

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Because my skin is supersensitive and relied too much on overpriced commercial products which made me think,hey,lets find a safer,local products that contained premium quality ingredients with AFFORDABLE price, and suitable for sensitive skin.i'm sure there is one out there.
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My own sweet time

Finally i managed to have my own time..and this is due to the sprained,swollen foot since i missed the last step at the stairs near my house last night.it was so painful and i can barely walk until now.its just icepack and bandages at the moment..dont even have time to go to clinic yet.

So here i am alone without the kids...kakak at playschool and adni with her wanmama.so when i am bored and unable to do the chores,i write.

Well to reflect back,i wish to capture few milestones so it wont slipped off my mind:
1. After 2 months of morning cries to school,Amna eventually embraced the fact that she need to go to school every weekdays morning.and she is happier to go to school now alhamdulillah.

2.However, ever since we establish a new schedule, sometimes when Amna is too tired,she tend to mengamuk and scream on top of lungs for hour.It was traumatic for us parents and we struggled hard to avoid reacting unwise in dealing with her tantrums..although sometimes we slipped as we just human. But most important for me is if even you're angry,please stay in control so you wont react beyond rationale..some people tend to speak harsh words,some throw things.please please try to control yourself when dealing with tantrum kids.

3.Adni is the cooler sister.She rarely cries but when she does,omg i think i want to pengsan.But its just fair since we need to cope with kakak also at the same time.

4.Adni gets his first tooth at 4mo.very impressive!

5.Me and hubby tried our best to get our moments together..recently we took half days leave to watch movies..eventhough the leave meant for baby's monthly checkup in the evening.The first time i managed to pumped my milk in the cinema..and i was confident the neighbours dont even realize it.A mummy need to do what mummy need to do!

6.like most mums,i prefer my weekends to be filled with activities with kids,whether at home or outdoor. It took me awhile to realise that it does not work the same with daddies. Their weekends means to fulfill their hobbies AND also spending time with kids.So you know, i am still trying to figure out the best solution to make end meets..

7. After 2 kids..packing things for a vacation even a short one is quite an issue.i always salah bajet baju and forget to bring their shoes etc..which rarely happened before this.

8. Now Amna has her daily logbook already and i enjoyed reading her caretaker's remarks.At the moment she is 'kelakuan baik tetapi masih memilih pakaian'. Hahaha this phase is very much confusing since she wants to select all her clothes..at the earlier stage she even wanted to wear the same clothes for 2 consecutive days.once we even ended up with her wearing hawaiian theme clothes to a wedding!

9.Thank God for a king framed bed as all of us still cosleeping.babycot currently serves as my temporary tudung shelf while Amna's room become Tokma's room since tokma always sleep there when she pay us a visit.

10.parenthood is enjoyable when you choose to.Negative feeling especially towards your spouse will never do any good to the family well being.and to plan quality time with your spouse is equally important as addressing the kids' needs.All the best to us all

Feelings and Counting Blessings

When you plan for so many things but it turned out not the actual way you plan, think about it as a rezeki in different form.

At the end of the day, you will see that everything that happened actually made sense especially when you finally see the rationale of everything that happened; although initially you were puzzled (and perhaps crushed) why it turned out that way.

That summarized my feelings right now. And am counting my blessings, Alhamdulillah Allahuakbar.

Ending the LDR and starting new life

Its been almost 3 months since my husband came back to KL for good. It means that our long distance relationship (LDR) for 3 years is finally over alhamdulillah :) The truth is throughout my married life, we only live together for a couple of months as before his Brunei assignment, he was always on long assignments in different projects, hence it is fair to say we're finally starting over.

Well, obviously this is the best happen to any LDR wives out there, but little that I know is the need of change and readjusting to normal life is not really a breeze and sometimes may be quite challenging.

1.Suddenly you have a partner to go and back from work. My habit of having my own sweet time every morning (sometimes I do sleep back after the Subuh prayer, and go to the office at 8.40am because I dont feel like coming early that day) is quite irrelevant anymore since I need to consider his morning meetings,etc. And he is quite reluctant to take the LRT hence we need to arrange of season parking near the office, and some mornings we need to send our child to the grandma's since we have 2 homes to man now hence it took more time off my usual morning routine.

2.Obviously, more house chores and laundry is waiting at home :P I dont mind washing and folding clothes but ironing is such a different story altogether. I always wonder why women's clothes are easier to iron hence quicker, as my routine is to iron MY clothes every morning before I go to work. But men's clothes always take more than 30 minutes (why dont  the men's shirt manufacturers make shirts from iron-free materials??)! Of course tak sempat if I want to iron both of our clothes every morning! Don't talk about weekends because we're rarely at home hence ironing a one week's stock is out of question for my situation. Finally I manage to convince the husband to take his cothes for ironing at the nearby laundry shop.. phew that lifts my workload alot. Also the guilt of hardly cooking any meal for the husband especially on weekdays.. usually we eat at our inlaws or outside and although my husband dont really mind his dear wife is rarely cook, but the guilt is a must for all wives I guess.

3. The different ideas on how we spend our out of office time sometimes makes me go crazy. While sometimes I carefully plan for a family weekends or attend usrah or programs at night, he would surprise me with his adhoc outstation, late meetings, adhoc golfing, meeting friends etc. While his is always `urgent' and `important' as if mine was not, this is where diplomatic conversation is really crucial to avoid miscommunation and get a win-win situation. So expect some confrontation and drama but at the end of the day, just dont drag any emotional or communication breakdown for too long; focus to sort the problems out soonest possible.

4.While the three points listed above is the challenge, one cant deny the perks and joy of having a husband by your side. The lesser burden of having to manage the house and kid on your own, a driver to drive you to most of your destination, a person to carry your groceries, a person to entertain your kid to sleep when Mummy is too tired or sick and most importantly Amna is evidently very happy with his Daddy's presence that of course makes Mummy happier.

5.Among unexpected thing that happened when the husband finally come home for good is, suddenly he brought back with him loads of clothes and stuff that we dont have enough storage in our tiny crib. I remembered he departed few years ago with only 2 bags and now these?! Hence we decided to get a new,bigger wardrobe for all the stuff. And when we plan for that, suddenly we felt that it was high time to refurbish the house abit since it looks exactly the same as 4 years ago (our apartment is a fully furnished unit when we bought it, even the curtains were 4 years old and never been washed!). Hence the small plan become a major thing and as of my writing now, the refurbishing work is still in progress and the house still looks like a ship wreck. So forgive me if i did not invite anyone to my house for Raya, promise I will invite you next year :)

Well that's a summary of my life after giving up the LDR wife title for good. I pray for other LDR wives to stay cool and collected, as you're one superwoman, ladies! The experience is priceless I must say, as it prepares you for anything, anytime. Now I can casually and coolly say `OK' when my husband break the news to go outstation/offshore the very next day (yes adhoc assignment is a norm).Cool right? We also knows where and when to pay the bills (trivia: do you know how many bills your husband need to pay every month?), who to call when the pipe is leaking or car battery is flat, you know the things that may be taken for granted when the hubby is constantly around.And needless to say, the whole situation brings us closer to the family as they are our lifesaver more often than not. Talk about the benefits of having both parents near you :) TTYL :)

Boss hanyalah posmen

(This was written on 19/1)

I am writing this from a condo's balcony overlooking the open sea.With scenic view and the sound of wave crashing the shore, the best word to describe this feeling is .....blessed. The irony part was i just had the same experience last week overlooking the same sea, but from a diffferent shore with different set of people.

I just had yet another conversation with ny colleague about the things that we thought would have gone better with a better leadership. This time was regarding endless work related issues due to different expectation from different level of people in the organisation. We acknowledged that the difference is a norm,but what about the actions to make ends meet?

When all reasons and evidences had resurfaced,we've nobody else to blame but the BOSS.It's always the boss(es) who are incompetent,cruel,heartless,not understanding gen Y, not this and not that. And it is a known fact that most popular reason on our friends' resignation is due to the boss factor. So when there is an obvious target, why bother finding other factor to support the hypothesis?

These few weeks I' ve the opportunity to work on a paper  to be presented to my higher management. Prior to the seating,we were required to have syndication sessions with every one of committee members to obtain mutual agreement prior to the real papee. During these sessions that I slowly realised the rationale of some decisions made by them, and how some idea, no matter how brilliant it was from our own point of view,might not be that good from the eyes of others. The management were trained to think like this,not focusing but always consider the negative impact of everything.My father in law,a military officer once told me that the army are also trained this way so they are better prepared and always in the alert mode incase anything goes wrong to our nation's security.

So the main question is, IS boss the one to be blamed in most situation in the office?

Not shoving the leadership factor aside, we (the gen y) always believe that our bosses need to improve on the leadership skills. BUT never forget that we also need to improve OURSELVES in terms of trying to understand and showing good manners to the elderly. It was worrying when I saw before my eyes that some people I know did not really respect the boss.Some did not informed when coming late to office or even taking leave,did not greet the bosses when they meet at the corridors,did not bother to compose nice sentences in emails.. and the list goes on and on.The selfish and 'I am always right no matter what' attitude need to be improved, my dear friends. A reminder to myself too if ever i cross the line.In simple words,jaga adab kita.

Because the truth is, boss(es) are just postmans - messengers of what had been laid down by our Ultimate Boss. If you dont like your workplace for whatever reason,make a move.Kan simple like that.

Ujian selepas kahwin

(Continuation from previous post)

The real test for me after I got married...

My husband is always not around me due to work commitment... he went for vietnam assignment as soon as our marriage leave ends.Then few domestic assignments.. and again 2 mo work in Vietnam again.All this happened within our first year of marriage. As most of thd newly wed, I always wanted a baby as soon as I got married. But that did not happen too fast for me.. i was TTCing for a year and without a husband around thing are almost impossible. Staying alone at home did not help either...bila duduk sorang ni I realized we tend to be more fragile and syaitan tu senang nak bisik benda bukan2.When finally I received the good news, I was pronounced miscarried after 7 weeks. Alhamdulillah my husband is around at this time..amonth later he got a transfer letter to brunei...luckily I was very calm to receive the news. Alhamdulillah I tried go overcome the sadness and live my life.. then I was again pregnant after few months. I was living alone throughout my pregnancy, luckily myhusband came back everytime he had the chance. After delivered the baby, the option I had is to live with my inlaws as they took care of my baby when iam working. Recently we just celebrated our 4th anniversary and I am still living with my inlaws while husband still in brunei... with no significant indication when he would return for good.

There I summarized my experience in one paragraph. I know it means nothing to some and I am not trying to get your sympathy here as the highlight of my story would be in the next paragraph.

Despite all the unfavorable events, I felt blessed with many magical things that happened.

Magical is a layman term that can best described `I feel that Allah talks to me' in His own way. He heard my each and every prayers despite my inconsistency of tahajjud, dhuha and other ibadat.. now as I am typing this I am so ashamed of myself  -_- By hearing means the Creator did not just gave whatever that I wished, but He fated for the best, the ones beyond my imagination and capability of planning. I shall not detail everything that happened here, as I believe everyone as well had similar experience like me, if not better. There were times I feel so relieved with what is happening as I speak today. How calming sometimes being apart with your spouse, how happy myself and my daughter by living with the inlaws.. you know the odd things that you could not rationalize with your head without actually experiencing it.

Hence with faith like this I believe everyone, especially women out there can endure everything that happen and rationalize it before you keep on saying things to reasoning yourself but disturbing to others like :

Only TTCing woman understands the pain of TTCing.

Only single Mom understands the pain of another single Mom.

Only people with similar experience understand one another.
Your difficulty is a far cry than mine- so shut up.

I admit that those sentences were my own, once upon a time. But I dah insaf. And hopefully the momentum will stay as you know, women is so fragile, thinking about 50 things at once, harini OK esok emosi tak stabil balik. For me, the key of success is only one : to get nearer to your Creator. Itu je.

Sekian, semoga di hari2 down I di masa depan, Insya Allah I can re-read this post and heal my soul back.

Cheers :)

Tipula kalau tak jealous

Tipula kalau I tak jealous....

1. Tengok orang dating ngan husband hari2

2. Tengok orang gi kerja dihantar dan dijemput husband

3. Tengok orang yang mampu pergi outstation/event/program sebab husband ada tolong jagakan anak

4. Tengok orang yang tenang je kat rumah sebab husband tolong uruskan hal2 harian dari basuh baju, iron baju, kemas rumah etc

5. Tengok family yang weekendnya penuh aktiviti untuk seisi keluarga macam pergi park, shopping mall, program etc

6. Tengok orang yang mampu plan the weeks and comply to it without dail

7. Tengok orang yang boleh gilir2 cuti ngan husband utk jaga anak bila caretaker bercuti

8. Tengok orang yang mudah nak plan dptkan anak siap specific lg jarak berapa tahun etc..

Tipulah kalau tak jelous. Perasaan tu satu fitrah bagi manusia terutama yang tak dapat depan mata padahal orang lain dapat je tanpa banyak effort. I pun x terkecuali dalam hal ni.. and honestly it takes some time to heal or find the rationale.

For me it doesnt matter, you deserve to grief for a while but dont take too long to heal, ok dear? Coz things like this is beyond our control, and no matter hard we try, if Allah has other plan for you it will never ever work.

For me, at this point of time where my emotion is most stable, the trick is to always sedar yang kita ni hamba. Siapa kita ni nak marah2 when our life turns to be the total opposite from what we dream. Sebab Pencipta kita itu tahu semuanya..

Looking back, I admit that my life journey is quite easy and straightforward. I was never the best in school but always in the top3 in primary school, top10 in secondary. My parents were the easygoing ones who always support and allow me to do whatever I want. I want to go to the boarding school and was selected.I never prepared for my scholarship interview for uni but got the offer. I met my right guy in uni who was from my hometown and got married. I never had financial problem as far as I am concern, alhamdulillah. As I said, I was never the best and some things do happen not the way I wanted I.e I dont get to further my study overseas and did not obtain a first class degree, but almost everything in my life falls nicely into places.... until I got married.

Allah uji I lepas I got married....
(To be continued)

Reset Minda Pekerja

One of my favorite tv program nowadays is Reset Minda bersama Prof Muhaya. I like her style of reminding others straight forwardly, without actually annoys or discomforts people. Just the style that suits me. One of the most memorable episode that I can really relate to my self and my situation is Reset Minda para pekerja.

If you ever experience perasaan tak suka pergi pejabat, tak suka bosses, tak suka colleagues, tak suka your work, rasa tak pernah dihargai dan 1001 macam lagi grievances related to work, well you should catch the re run of this episode in Astro Oasis. When I watch this episode, every single words uttered by Prof really hit me right on the face. I pernah rasa perasaan yang sangat teruk ni twice in my working life. Once when i just got married and my husband immediately was assigned to Vietnam and other places.. and sekali lagi masa i just gave birth to my baby and got back to work,where I need to stay with my inlaws coz they agreed to take care of my baby while I got to work. To think back during these two major downside of my life, both were related to fragile emotions due to  missing support by the husband and ALSO some problem in the office that i shall not detailed down here.

Well to relate back to the topic, the key concept that i learnt from the program me is focus on what we are giving, rather that we are given. We always see ourselves as most important person because we do good work for the company,more often we stretch our efforts to make ends meet, and we always expect something in return, sometimes even something extra at the end of the day. But sometimes we tend to forget that we are the one who apply to work for the company, and they have the rights to assess our work and decides whether we shall be given handsome bonus or not at the end of the year. And once the decision did not meet our expectation, our instinct is always to rebel and give less from what we always give, because it doesn't make any difference anyway. Because those persons whom give less but more visible, or please the bosses whom will get the extra perks and not us.

The paragraph above is actually a real case that always happen in the workforce, especially in my unit. It is because my current work is so monotonous, very operational and is always hectic through out the year. At least a project has phases, and perhaps you may get totally busy at any of the phase and once it was done, you may have a time period to cool down and reflects, suggest for rooms of improvements before the next project kick off. But not for my case. So the negative atmosphere is always clouding my units especially because most of the member of my units are quite experienced people, and we have experience working with different team and bosses that we could always compare our experience to.

For me, i am a self motivated person. For me motivational book doesn't help to increase my motivation, i will do the soul searching and find my inspiration so i can get the mood and actually enjoy what i am doing at work, so i can strive better and perform at my best level. So currently the work atmosphere doesn't bother me so much, as i now if i want to make the atmosphere better, i am the one who need to move forward. Not forcing or waiting for the scenario to change. For external motivation i look forward to programmes like Prof Muhaya's and also by reading biography books of famous and successful person.

So if you're feeling down and not wanting to wake up the next day to go to the office, please catch the rerun of this programme to get you inspired. We need to understand why we go to work and how to enjoy working, if we fail to feel the joy we might as well quit and do something else instead e.g. starting a business, etc. And please do it quickly, because the longer you stay, you might feel more miserable, and this will surely affect your performance, and you will be the excess baggage to your colleagues and company too.

2011 Reminiscence

*I've prepared this around new year's eve but forgot to post it.Sorry for the delay!*

My 2011 was coloured with a lot of milestones and memorable moments. I felt like having a hardbound diary just to remember this year, but is there any point of having a diary at the very end of the year? Haha perhaps I can try for next year.

Jan 2011
The year started with a family trip with hubby's family and my birthday celebration (thanks honey!) to Guangzhou, China. Our intention is actually to look for small business opportunity and only Mama managed to start her own! She bought 30 beautiful evening clutches (or some of us referred to it as dinner bags) and it was a big hit among her friends and relatives. This was a rough and hectic journey, but we love every moment of it! Later when we come home, I found my pregnancy test was positive. I conceived! After one year of marriage. It was such a sweet birthday present for us. To be honest, we'd planned to start to meet some Gynae to check our fertility status (just in case), but the good news came really fast.

Feb 2011
I need to mention here, since last Eid Adha in 2010 hubby always in KL for work and not scheduled elsewhere.So I was practically happy! On 6th Feb, I found myself bleeding non-stop and I had suspected the worse. On 7th Feb, the doctor in PUSRAWI confirmed my fetus wasn't developing and later that evening, I had the worse stomach cramp ever and was rushed to the ER in PCMC. I was admitted for 3 days to undergone D&C (I had an almost complete abortion, almost, hence the D&C) and enjoyed 2 weeks of mini confinement at home.

Mar 2011
I believe I recovered quite well, physically and emotionally after that experience. Only to found the shocking news : hubby was asked for a long attachment (read: transfer minimum 1 year) to Brunei. They just set up a subsidiary company there and for most Oil and Gas engineers, this was like a dream come true (on the development of skills, experience, perks, etc). And they wanted him on the first day of April. So throughout this month his job is consoling his dear wife and assuring me everything will be fine, insya Allah. We'll work through this together (of course I didn't buy it though, but what else can I do?)

Apr 2011
He fled to Brunei for good. The arrangement is for me to stayed with my parents in Seremban and commute to work everyday. Although it was tiring, I found it manageable though, cause my Dad is also a frequent commuter for the last 20 years.At least I ada geng. Tapi it depends jugak I didn't commute the entire month, sometimes I just stayed in KL and went to the parents near and over the weekend. Just to spice things up, hubby got to go to Perth for a week's work and I happily drop everything and followed him :) Macam second honeymoon la pulak.

May 2011
In one of the weekend, I went to BWN to check on him. Since he was still on attachment, he stayed in a nice hotel and I am happy to tumpang sekaki. Oh I love staying in luxury hotels! (who doesn't?). We went around hujung ke hujung, sampai ke Kuala Belait (coincidentally a Malaysian family hosted a small event so we just came to mingle around) and near Limbang border. Can't belief we covered the whole Brunei in just one night! I went to Labuan for the first time since it took just 45 mins by ferry. We bought some choc, had a lunch by the beach, tumpang solat kat Grand Dorsett (too lazy to catch a taxi just to go to the nearest masjid) and back to BWN. This month also hubby got to go to Singapore for work too, and as always I ikut jugak, haha. Who can't resist to stay in a nice hotel near Orchard Road? Nak pergi sendiri kurang mampu.

June & July 2011
Highlight of the month is hubby's Away Day in Kota Kinabalu. I never been to KK before! So again I packed my things and met him there. Sutera Harbour had such an amazing scenery, it looks like postcards! Sampai my parents cakap dah muak dah every weekend asik pergi airport je haha.. These moves was inspired by one of my ex-manager, she said `Never worried about kids, they will come when the time comes. I dulu after 2 years baru dapat anak, sementara tu I enjoy je life dengan hubby. Kalau nak berjalan, angkat beg terus pergi, takyah fikir2'. Haha kata2 hikmat di situ. After this trip, I was so busy with work (if you want to make it sound technical, I've started my `Operations') and could not afford people covering me. Owh before I forgot, after my miscarriage and an away husband, the pressure to conceive has almost gone, unlike last year. I just go with the flow and even once asked hubby `Kita plan for a child bila abang balik for good lah?'. But instead he replied `takpe, tu kuasa Allah, kalau dia nak bagi dia bagi jugak'. I'm flattered!

Aug 2011
It was fasting month, and hubby promised to come home every weekend. I stayed at my parents' house the whole month coz the food is nicer at home for break fast. Haha. But one of the weekend he had a workshop, and since it was done in the most prestigous hotel in Brunei (Empire hotel) I happily booked a flight to BWN! Haha penatkan hidup camni.. tapi takpe alasannya adalah `tempat isteri di sisi suami'. Haha so I get to experience the fasting month in Brunei, alah same je cam tempat kita. This was also the first time I went to hubby's `rumah bujang' (cis nama je rumah bujang tapi sangat selesa) which he lived with his colleagues for the past 3 months. Late this month I received another surprising news: I conceived again alhamdulillah (despite our status as by-weekly couple-memang kuasa Allah kita tak boleh halang) after 6 months since my miscarriage. It looks like I got the most memorable Raya present ever!

Sept &Oct 2011
Raya2! Balik kampung Kedah and only then we popped the news to the inlaws. I wanted to keep it as a secret but hubby memang tak sabar2. After six weeks of conceiving, the most dreaded morning sickness strikes me. Tidak perlu detail, imagine kan aje. Walaupun setiap hari rase nak cuti, nak unpaid leave, tak larat nak bangun.. hehe. Alhamdulillah. I rase agak teruk jugak my sickness but I managed to go to the office most of the days. Maybe just 1-2 days of MC? Since hubby had started Operations and went to offshore quite a lot, I pendamkan aje desire nak merengek2 suruh hubby balik just because of my condition. Sedih kan I. Hahaha pathetic I know.ANd after 3 months of conceiving I dont really have the energy to commute from Seremban to work anymore, so I am in KL most of the time.

Nov&Dec 2011
A short trip to Hong Kong in mid Nov with the whole family (my side) termasuk budak kecik 2 orang tu..sangat seronok! Can't believe how fast time flies.. sedar tak sedar we'd been in LDR for 9 months already! Some good news: My PIL got transferred to KL and obtained a kuarters in Mindef HQ, which means they were now my neighbour!! Dapat jua ku menumpang kasih heheh. The dreaded news: Hubby was confirmed to extend his contract in Brunei or even consider a transfer package for that matter,atleast for another year. I guess it is wise to not grief about this fate too much, it is much easier to accept everything and pray for the best. We believe we'll get this through, insya Allah. After all we survived 9 months, no? Also my health is doing extremely well- Alhamdulillah I did not experience any difficulties or mishap(nauzubillah) throughout the pregnancy because I strongly believe Allah destined everything this way, and He is always there for us. So far hubby never missed any of my monthly check ups and that alone makes me (and baby) happy :)

OK that's about it on some note that I wish to rewind and retain in my memory in 2011. Hopefully 2012 will be a better year for all of us insya Allah :)

The Beauty of Giving

Need not to emphasize, I believe most people had experience the beauty
of giving, whether we realize it or not. I am an avid believer of this
beautiful concept, and I did experience alot of thing that somehow
perhaps (insya Allah) caused by the act of giving.
Like today, I just give something to someone and suddenly, almost
immediately, hubby called and surprised me `Abang balik esok :)'
padahal sebelum ni dah declare siap2 tak balik minggu ni walaupun cuti
panjang coz nak balik minggu depan and kena cover colleagues yang cuti
hujung tahun. Huhu sib baek takde drama airmata di situ kalau tak
segan I.
Even alot of Islamic scholars encouraged giving or donating if you
want your wish to be fulfilled.. including if you want a child or
something that you wished for some time but haven't got it. Coz
eventually, giving away makes you gain more and more! Honestly, when I
was trying to conceive, I did this too and it work wonders,
alhamdulillah.
The best part of giving is, the recipient always pray for you and that
is what I treasure the most. Just imagine orang yang berdoa untuk you
adalah orang yang mustajab doanya, sedangkan kita sendiri berdoa dan
ada hijab without us knowing (nauzubillah)? Subhanallah the result is
always amazing :)
Make it a habit that everytime you log in/go to the ATM to check at
the amount of money in your account, always transfer some allocated
amount to the needy/someone before you log out. Be it RM10 pun takpe,
it will grow more and will never stop! Somebody told me,if you want to
be a millionaire, the number one thing you should do is giving a lot,
insya Allah you will reach your goal. Since being a millionaire is
also my dream goal, I want to implement this tip too!
:) Today is a happy happy day, hence the positive vibe :)

2nd Anniversary Memorabilia

Our 2nd anniversary was weeks ago, and this time instead of a romantic
getaway like last year, we celebrated with his big family's barbecue
cum family day. I eat like nobody's business, like my aunt said
`Rasenye Sha nie dah duduk kat semua kerusi keliling meja ni dah..
makannn je tak berenti' Heheh blame the scrumptious barbecue (I'm a
self-proclaimed barbecue lover) and lots of food!
Sekali cerita pasal BBQ tapi picture adalah pen. Takpelah forgive me please :p
That is hubby's new treasure and he was sweet enough to engrave our
names together. Can I consider that as our 2nd anniversary
memorabilia, hunny? :) Wow dah 2 tahun.. time flies! I feels more like
pasangan bercinta rather than a 2-year- married couple coz we're
always apart and always on the phone, asking lame questions without
fail like `Buat ape tuh', `Dah makan ke', `Makan ape harini', `Dah
mandi ke',`Esok buat ape' stuff like that, everytime we talk. Dulu
rase poyo jer orang tanye boyfriend dia camtu tapi sekarang I yang
buat pulak, hehe
P/S: Entry orang bercinta. Sila abaikan.

Ayah.

Ayah.

Tak ramai yang menghargai ayah lebih daripada menghargai ibu.Ya memanglah hadis Rasulullah sendiri mengutamakan ibu berbanding ayah, tetapi bukanlah bermaksud peranan ayah boleh diketepikan.. macam yang kita sering buat, kita selalu telefon ibu berbanding ayah, apa2 masalah kita cerita kat ibu dulu baru ayah..sampai selalunya ayah tanya pasal kita kat mak, bukan kat kita sendiri sebab dah banyak cerita ngan mak kita jadi malas nak ulang benda yang sama kat ayah. Tanpa sedar itu yang sering saya lakukan, padahal dulu kalau birthday atau nak minta sesuatu sibuk la mengendeng kat ayah sebab ayah lagi banyak duit.Huhu

Waktu saya menghadiri training dua minggu lepas, ada modul yang suruh peserta menceritakan apa peristiwa yang paling berbekas dalam hati dan menjadi turning point dalam hidup.Peristiwa itu perlu diceritakan kepada seluruh kelas. Dan ada satu peristiwa ni yang segar sangat dalam ingatan saya dan antara peristiwa paling penting dalam hidup yang berkaitan dengan abah.

Selepas saya grad, sementara nak tunggu company pemberi biasiswa panggil untuk lapor diri, saya bosan di rumah dan mula bekerja di sebuah manufacturing company.Atau nama tak glamernya kilang. Kilang ni high-tech dan sangat mengujakan young engineers seperti saya pada masa tu, dah la baru grad kan tak sabar2 nak apply kan technical knowledge yang dipelajari(kunun).Makin lama di sana, saya dapat ramai kawan dan semakin seronok kat sana. Kebetulan masa tu sentimen membenci company pemberi biasiswa sangat tebal, mungkin sebab kena bond 10 tahun kot. Dahlah lambat panggil bekerja, macam nak taknak je kita nie. So saya pun enjoy myself, dapat kawan2 budak2 cina yang tak reti cakap melayu tapi diorang best.Asik2 jalan2 cari makan pastu pandai lak cari tempat makan halal sebab saya join sekali. Siap sempat roadtrip ke Melaka bagai waktu kami kena forced leave sebab kilang shut down for maintenance. Ye, forced leave adalah wujud di dunia ini kawan2.Sangat takbest.Selain tu company ni ada special programme yang dia hantar kitorang pergi training technical and leadership skills setiap minggu dalam masa 3 bulan, fuishh best gila la gi hotel training2.Rasa macam orang penting jer.

Sampai satu tahap saya rasa seronok dan cakap ngan Abah `saya taknak kerja ngan syarikat pemberi biasiswa, saya nak kerja kat kilang nie.tambahan plak diorang boleh nego nak minta release dari kontrak kalau saya betul2 berminat kerja dengan diorang'. Abah nampak tak setuju dan dia tau kalau dia cakap saya akan bangkang terus.Biaselah darah muda dan keras kepala (sindrom second child,standard la gini). Pastu reaksi abah macam ala2 `Ok fine'.So perbincangan terhenti di situ.

Pastu dalam bulan 4 saya dapat tawaran dari syarikat pemberi biasiswa. Sebab saya tengah bekerja, saya minta delay 2 bulan sebelum lapor diri.Dalam hati dah fikir2 camne strategi untuk taknak kerja dengan syarikat pemberi biasiswa. Tapi saya cakap juga kat Abah saya dapat tawaran ni.Masa tu tengah makan malam kat luar.Abah dengan selamba cakap `Abah tau dah'.Saya terkejut.`Mana abah tau?'.`Sebab 2 minggu lepas Abah dah pergi sendiri kat Level63 company pemberi biasiswa dan diorang cakap adik dapat placement.Abah cakap adik terima tawaran tu' lebih kurang camni Abah jawab.

Masa tu saya marahhhh sangat dengan Abah, sebab saya dah bekerja pun Abah masih nak menentukan arah hidup saya. Kenapa Abah perlu interfere sampai macam tu sekali, siap contact sendiri syarikat pemberi biasiswa tanpa pengetahuan saya?Saya ni bajet independent la kononnya, start gosok baju sendiri dari darjah dua tau.Saya tak suka orang lain yang buatkan decision,rasa diri lemah (mungkin ego yang menggunung?). Sepanjang makan tu saya menangis dan tak bercakap ngan Abah berhari2 jugaklah. Saya sedih sangat Abah masih nak masuk campur dalam urusan kerja dan hidup saya (wah bajet dah besar sangat lah kan statement macamtu).

Dipendekkan cerita, saya masuk kerja jugak di syarikat pemberi biasiswa. Walaupun tak buat kerja engineer sejati tapi Abah tak kisah. Saya ikut je lah bukan boleh buat apa pun.Tapi deep down saya tak kisah pun kerja kat ofis, kerja engineer buek ponek badan je and tak dapat la maintain ayu.Haha no offense, engineers. Then, looking back after 2 years, saya percaya itu antara keputusan terbaik yang Allah takdirkan untuk saya, dengan mengikut cakap ayah saya. Dalam masa 2 tahun macam2 terjadi. Kawan2 di tempat kerja lama satu persatu tinggalkan company tu for various reasons(dengarnya termasuk lay-offs).Tiba2 krisis ekonomi dan susah sangat nak dapat kerja dengan syarikat pemberi biasiswa saya ni.Sempat dapat bonus dan prestasi kerja agak baik,serta bos2 dan kawan2 yang best.Ada salary adjustment.Dah jadi macam among the most sought employer in the whole country(to colleagues, as much as we want to deny this, it is quite a statement.).Padahal dulu jual mahal sangat takmo kerja dengan dia. So, this proved the power of obeying my father's say.

Of course masa saya cerita kat kelas tu memang emotional gila.Siap suara tersekat2 sib baik tak hujan. Tapi saya teruja bila ada sorang kawan ni, masa feedback session last day, dia cakap dia terkesan dengan cerita saya sebab dia pun sebelum ni ada krisis gak ngan ayah dia.Lepas dengar cerita saya, malam tu dia sit down dan have dinner with his father and chat for long hours. I was so touched by that. So nampak tak, touching people's heart made me felt touched inside.. and from that training onwards I tried to become supernice with my Dad. I sat with him during dinner (biaselah kaum ibu selalu berdiet, aku je makan ngan Abah dua orang), I don't cut his sentence anymore, I dengar semua pendapat, nasihat dan cerita dia walaupun rasanya dah pernah dengar 10 kali huhu.Pastu first night I buat camtu, tetiba Abah hadiahkan I hand luggage Arnold Palmer. I taktau sebab dia perasan I'm being nice to him pada malam itu ataupun itu hanya kebetulan.At the end, I happy Abah pun happy.Tengok last2 mesti nak gak kata ganti diri `I' hish tak konsisten btul anda nieh.

Kesimpulannya mudah, sayangi bapa anda dan hargai mereka macam you hargai ibu jugak, if not more.

No Regrets : This Ain't A Textbook Life

I planned to write an insights of what was recently happened to me.. a really(?) good one with grammar check,good vocabulary and everything. But I'm afraid I'll be so lazy and will subsequently abandon this page and when I was up to write again, semuanya jadi basi. So I want to write something, and right now.

Ok you 've known the chronology already, I detailed it out in the last page. "No regrets" - those words were stucked on my head from the very first night I was admitted in the hospital until recently. Nothing should be regretted pun kan. But Alhamdulillah I didn't feel depressed or anything alike.OK I cried once and that's it, just accept it.It had happened and it was not the worse thing happen to someone. Yelah I mean, countless ladies that I knew had the same experience, if not worse.My friends,my colleauges,my boss,my aunties.. ramai yang dah share experience yang sama that actually made me relieved.

I pun tak sure what my point is actually tapi I still nak tulis something.

Yang tak semua kita ni experiencing/will experience `textbook life'. My definition of textbook life is everything you planned is exactly implemented whether with or without your control. Macam, you study that discipline and you get employed doing exactly that.dan you plan nak kawin at 25 and you got it arranged.dan after one year you already pregnant, no complication whatsoever and had a beautiful baby,after two years you got another bundle of joy and the list went on and on.meanwhile you get good performance ratings at work, get promoted within 4 years,buy house,buy new cars, etc. As odd as it sounds, some people do get a textbook life.I know some who had it.Tak mungkinlah tak jealous tapi dah memang rezeki dan tertulis their plan is exactly the same as the God's plan..they should be grateful to have all that.

While, some of us, infact most of us will face bumps down the road.Sometimes we will be hit hard,sometimes we bounce back harder.Bukanlah sebab Tuhan tak sayang but we will be challenged on things that we are actually capable to deal with no matter how hard.. it was written in the holy Quran. Infact kita pun kena sangat bersyukur sebab dapat ujian, ujian tanda sayang Allah kpd hamba-Nya kan? Mungkin textbook life is not the best for us, hence ours are more challenging. The fact is that when we died, we will only be judged with our iman and taqwa. Not our money,our success stories,our performance rating, our number of children, our family etc etc. So ladies and gents, and especially myself, tabahlah :) Dan doa usaha tawakkal selalu..meminjam kata2 seorang kawan,"kalau langit yang besar dan berat tu Allah boleh tadbir, takkan awak sorang yang kecil ni Allah nak biarkan?"

Baru2 ni ada scene dalam satu drama tu sangat mengesankan saya.Tak ingat dah tajuk dia.. tapi pasal anak perempuan ni yang ala2 jahat cakap kasar ngan mak dia kat telefon, pastu terus eksiden.Then bila dia terjaga tengok kawan2 dia semuanya dah mati dalam kereta tu, dia takut dan panggil2 mak dan abang dia yang dia dah buat jahat untuk mintak maaf..lepas tu baru dia nampak mayat dia sendiri tercampak luar keta.Maksudnya dia pun dah mati...... owh that scene really touched me. Siapa tahu tajuk dia sila bagitau saya ok.

OK I know this post tak sharp and point dia bersepah2.But that is how I usually think,bersepah2 and think 10 things sekaligus. Apa2 pun, doakan I dapat pengganti yang lebih baik okay :) And I'll pray for you guys too.Semoga baik2 sahaja!

Self Reminder #4 : Entah Random kot

Baru tadi saya dengar ceramah kat surau company, disampakan oleh seorang Muallaf yang sangat terer dan fasih memberi dalil..kalah kita2 yang lahir2 Islam nie.Memang malu sangat kalau attend talk diorang ni, sebab diorg embrace Islam and menghayati bersungguh2! Dalil takyah cakap la, dalam tangan. Main ingat2 dalam kepala terus tulis sepuluh ayah al Quran dengan maksud yang tepat! Jarang orang lahir2 Islam nak appreciate kan nikmat yang kita dah dapat ni. Sebab kita tak berusaha sungguh2 untuk dapatkannya kot..lahir2 dah jadi orang Islam.

As usual talk tentang fakta2 ayat alQuran berbanding sains and kitab/Bible sangat mengujakan dan menarik perhatian. To be specific tadi brother ni kupas pasal persoalan yang membuktikan Al Quran ditulis oleh Allah, dan bukannya oleh Rasulullah,oleh orang lain,tiru Bible,oleh syaitan or mana2 possible pihak lagi selain Allah.

I nak share satu benda yang sangat terkesan dalam hati, yang buat I sebak nak nangis. Masa sesi Q&A, ada orang tanya `Macam mana kita nak lawan Yahudi yang sangat bijak, tamak dan takkan habis berusaha nak hancurkan Islam?' At first saya ingat brother tu nak bagi jawapan intelek siap dalil bagai, tapi jawapan dia senang dan sangat menyentuh hati.

Dia jawab camni lebih kurang `Bagi saya, untuk lawan Yahudi adalah dengan kita semua orang Islam berpegang teguh seteguhnya kepada ajaran Islam. Itu je. Dan perkara ni memang tak mustahil sebab zaman silam kita dah lihat bagaimana Islam mampu memerintah dunia.So kalau kita berpegang teguh dengan Islam, bukan hanya kaum Yahudi, kaum Cina dan semua sekali pun mampu kita kalahkan'.'

Simple but smart.

Dalam kepala saya dok terbayang trend zaman sekarang..zaman saya la nie la

Di mana semua orang berlumba2 cari harta dan kepuasan dunia- bercuti, kereta mewah, rumah 2-3 bijik,investment sana sini untuk banyakkan duit, bisnes sampingan, pendapatan lumayan dalam masa singkat,etc

Sambil2 tu ramai yang dah tak ingat batas agama

Yang taktau sempadan auratnya, taktau sempadan pergaulannya, yang jaja cerita rumah tangga kat blog (kan trend sekarang blogging pasal personal life ni? Zaman kita kecik dulu mana ada!), taktau hukum hakam agama dalam kehidupan, mengumpat dalam facebook, yang terang2an lagi lah kan, macam2 lagi le tak tersebut.

Belom cerita gejala sosial zaman sekarang lagi tuh.. baru minggu lepas sembang ngn kekawan, ingat lagi masa kita sekolah benda paling dahsyat sekali berlaku adalah `tomboy' (saya sempat sekolah semua pempuan masa sekolah rendah). Tu pun pemakaian je pun and main minat2 kekawan yang cun..itu jer taklah sampai bawak masuk bilik segala.Sekarang? More than you can ever imagine.

Nauzubillah minzalik.

Dan all this while saya dan anda asyik bermimpi negara Islam akan ditegakkan di Malaysia?

Rupanya impian ini, mungkin hanya tinggal angan2, selagi saya,kita dan masyarakat Islam masih tak berpegang teguh dengan ajaran Islam.Tahajjud pon payah!

Ending macam ceramah tapi saya memang perlu constantly dengar ceramah untuk peringat diri.

Ok malam ni jangan lupa Alkahfi, almulk dan tahajjud. Setan sila jauhi diriku okeh.

Self Reminder #2 : Selamat Tahun Baru1432H

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Selamat tahun baru (tahun lepas nie rasanya rekod paling banyak orang cakap `eh, cepatnya tahun ni berlalu kan? kejap je dah hujung tahun.apa tandanya? Soklan bocor ye kawankawan),

Semoga bertambahnya tahun seiring dengan pertambahan amalan kita,

Semoga tahun yang berlalu ni berjaya digunakan dengan sebaiknya dan lebih berkat apabila diakhiri dengan doa awal tahun..dan

Semoga tahun baru ni lebih bermakna dengan memulakannya dengan doa awal tahun, semoga tahun baru menjanjikan seribu satu kebahagian dan keberkatan untuk diri kita.

(Pesanan untuk diri sendiri)

Janganlah terlalu leka berusaha nak fulfil bermacam2 hajat kita..nak anak comel, keta baru,pergi melancong, rumah baru, decoder astro baru (eheh ni apehal, astro memang sengal kalo ada warranty tu lambat je bertindak, cuba kalo nak subcribe canel baru lajuu jer), berhajat kat mende yang main main je sifatnye etc sampai terlupa yang kita sebenarnya perlu beramal seperti akan mati esok hari..

Hajj 2010

It is never too late to wish Salam Aidil Adha to all. Let us embrace the spirit of sacrifice in our daily lives.

I wish to paste my FB status two days back as a reminder for me to fulfil when the time comes, insya Allah.

"Nor Shahira Md Isa Salam Aidil adha kepada semua. Sempena hari raya ini, saya berazam utk menunaikan haji pada tahun saya dapat giliran haji. tak kesah la kena unpaid leave pun takpe, yg penting kewajipan mesti ditunaikan. insya Allah sekiranya masih bernyawa dan berkemampuan.. ameen "

Allahuakbar, allahuakbar,allahuakbar, walillah ilham.

p/s : Pictures are taken during Hajj 2010 session. Amazing and inspiring pictures indeed.Credit to REUTERS, Getty Images & AP Photos.

p/s2 : Congratulations to a former housemate whom just delivered a baby boy on Raya day. I recommended her to bagi nama anak dia Aidil Zafuan atau Zakuan Adha, hehe

Featured picture

This had been my featured picture since.. forever. I used the same pic in my YM and blogger. Some even commented I have a slight similarity with the girl, minus the fair-complexion of course :P I take it as an honour, since I really love the picture. Actually this is a picture of a Palestinian girl, that I fell in love with when I googled years ago. Her eyes tell many stories and reflect hopes that is always alive for them, the Palestinian. Just a few days back when I googled again to find the exact picture, I could not find it. Luckily I saved a few copies in my hard drive and my photo host.. can someone find it for me??

My Best friend's Wedding

Atas permintaan ramai...

This is a friend whom most of the time with me,through thick and thin.

She was there when I cried (which was very rare) , start dari hilang kunci keta masa 2nd year, depressed mase convofair mase 3rd year, perang besar ngan dia mase 4th year (intern..haha I think the most depressed person during this time is Jasa.Peace Jess~), kecik hati ngan member and abundance of workload mase final year, kecik hati ngan ayah mase pas uni..(masa ni kat umah aku pun hang ade.Magic pe hang ni?) she was always there to console me.

She was there gak through my unforgettable experience.Naik skuter dari uni ke Ipoh and Pangkor, merentas Jambatan Pulau Pinang, she taught me my first time fishing experience in Taman Negara P Pinang (monkey beach ke? lupa dah) sampai I jadi addict and taknak dah mandi laut pastu sebab asyik sangat mancing, our air kelapa moment (and tayar pancit) lepas balik keje mase intern, my first accident (selepas itu saya fobia bawak keta selama tiga minggu, dan tumpang moto dia gi keje everyday), and trip to balai polis dan jumpe pakcik polis sengal,my first ICU experience visiting Anih's friend(Anih is her sister yang equally funny and hilarious) .. not to mention our many roadtrips to Langkawi, Sunway Lagoon, Padang Besaq, Bukit Merah, jalan2 cari ayaq terjun and mandi laut (mase intern, ni memang kerja kami tiap weekend), Penang, Port Dickson.. aih banyak lagi lah.

She was a friend that I relied solely when it comes to assignments and projects in uni.. when I came back after various meetings at 2.00 am,my ritual was always bawak bantal and assignments pi room dia, and konon nak wat keje same2 padahal I slept 10minutes after my arrival huhu..and the main resource each time I don't have time to complete my assignments on time.Hahaa apsal hang ada dalam semua occasion hidup aku nih?

Therefore a long, miserable journey to your wedding is nothing compared to your hospitality and warmth as a friend. Happy wedding, Hariri! And may the best of everything in your new life, insya Allah.

p/s:Excuse the emotional post, I think sometimes ape salahnye.Hehe

Logik Etika Estestika

Logik
Etika
Estestika.

Tiga elemen ini merupakan aras tanda sesebuah karya seni itu bermutu atau sebaliknya, menurut Faisal Tehrani (FT) dalam majalah Muslimah keluaran Mei 2008.

Sebagai orang yang memperjuangkan karya seni sastera, beliau membincangkan tentang tiga elemen yang sangat kurang diterapkan dalam karya seni di negara kita, sama ada filem, drama, penulisan dan sebagainya. Tapi kali ini mungkin saya nak fokus kepada karya drama televisyen dan filem, sebab kalau masuk penulisan makin panjang hujahya.

Nilai pertama, logik. Kalau kita lihat memang banyak cerita yang dipaparkan di televisyen mahupun layar perak adalah tak logik. Bak kata FT, Ayat-ayat Cinta itupun tak logik. Sebenarnya nilai logik yang ada dalam sesebuah cerita itu turut membantu penghayatan penonton sekaligus mengaitkan dengan kehidupan realiti.Bukan hanya terperangkap dalam dunia fantasi yang entah apa-apa. Watak utama yang terlalu sempurna, kehidupan yang terlalu banyak kebetulan (baca:terlalu banyak!!), dunia yang hanya dipenuhi angan-angan dan yang jelita mesti akan berkahwin dengan putera raja dan hidup mewah, yang miskin pasti akan terperangkap dalam gejala sosial seterusnya menjadi perosak masyarakat. Memanglah tiada yang mustahil di dunia ni, tapi yang lebih penting apakah nilai yang boleh diambil oleh penonton (aundience’s take-away) di akhir cerita nanti?

Nilai kedua,etika. Ni amat kurang didapati dalam drama tv kita akhir-akhir ini. Asyik-asyik cerita skandal, putus cinta, korporat terlibat rasuah, gelap duit, bohsia, rebut suami orang dan sewaktu dengannya.Logik? Memanglah logik. Macam cerita Yasmin Ahmad, memang logik dan berlaku dalam masyarakat kita. Tapi perlu ke sisi itu yang ditonjolkan dalam filem, secara jujur dan telus, tanpa sebarang tapisan? Macam mana dengan penonton bawah umur, yang tak faham double meaning dan cheeky body gesture? Mungkinkah mak ayah mereka akan dibom dengan macam-macam soalan selepas tengok cerita macam ni. Pada fikiran mereka, mungkin budaya Melayu kita memang macam ni agaknya.

Kebanyakan cerita memang ada selitkan unsur-unsur keinsafan dan pengajaran buat jahat dibalas jahat pada penghujung cerita.Itu saya tak nafikan, tapi mungkin sikit sangat.. kebanyakan isi cerita lebih kepada yang berbentuk skandal dan sensasi. Cubalah bayangkan, kalau budak-budak kecil asyik disajikan cerita-cerita macam ni,lama kelamaan akan terprogram dalam otak mereka dan besar nanti macam nilah corak pemikiran mereka.Cita-cita nak jadi model, nak kahwin dengan orang kaya, nak jadi artis..

Nilai ketiga, estestika. FT kata estestika ni keindahan,nilai yang jadikan subah cerita nampak menarik dan bagus. Saya sendiri, sangat suka filem yang memaparkan shot alam yang cantik, dari sudut yang menarik dan peralihan plot yang kemas.Pendek kata, perfect cinematography (he art or technique of movie photography, including both the shooting and development of the film). Saya tak nafikan filem Yasmin memang cantik.. tapi sayang estestikanya ada, etikanya kurang.

Memang banyak filem dan drama sekarang, tinggi nilai estestika dan kurang nilai etika. Kalau filem `cantik’, maka mudahlah diangkat di festival filem dan menang anugerah filem dan drama. Tapi mana nilai sebenar sesebuah filem itu, kalau akhirnya penonton tak dapat apa pun. Sedikit pun tak bertambah nilai kemanusiaan, ilmu mahupun intelektual. Saya merasakan, dan mengharapkan orang-orang seni perlu lebih kreatif dan berfikiran jauh untuk menjadikan filem dan drama mereka mengasuh masyarakat menjadi lebih baik, bukannya tanpa impak. Jauh sekali menjadikan mereka lebih hanyut dengan dunia rekaan mereka. Mungkin saya boleh lihat lebih banyak program tv dan filem yang menepati konsep yang tiga ini, insya Allah.